2013

I guess I still haven’t figured out this concept of “time.”  Everything depends on it.  I think of my time well spent, time wasted and lost, times of happiness and times of sorrow, and regret.  This year hasn’t been easy by any means.  2012 has been by far the worst year I can remember in my life.  True not all was bad, but I lost someone for the first time.  And then eight short months later, another.  Husband and wife.  My grandpa and grandma.  I think of the time spent with them and think of how lucky we were to have them as grandparents.  We spent the weekend with her just two weeks before she died suddenly and went to see him when we heard of the cancer.  Time well spent.

I learned for the first time how hard it is to take your own advice you give to the stupid girls who let guys abuse them.  If you love someone, you will make excuse upon excuse to forgive them.  After the saliva to the face, he still drew me back in.  Waking up a morning after heavily drinking and fighting the night before, the bleeding scars on my arms should have been a wake-up call.  But still no.  I don’t think when he shoved me down the stadium’s steps is what did it.  It all hit me at once and I couldn’t do it anymore.  I can’t decide if this was a complete waste of the last two years of my life or if it was extreme lessons learned. Possibly time lost to find someone worthwhile. 

Now that this year is drawing to a close, I am truly relieved.  Time to celebrate and forget 2012 at this massive music festival in Dallas.  Music, especially the genre of Electronic Dance Music provided an escape from the hurt in life and what better way to kick of the New Year?  I think back for a second to the 1920s when “Jes Grew” as they labeled the outbreak of ragtime music as a plague that must be stopped emerged.  Why would people want to prevent others happiness and possibly their own?  It made no sense and this made me appreciate the time I was born.  Being a 90s baby, I’ve experienced more freedom with not only music, but religion, opportunity, etc. Not to mention this technology-inclined era.  This music incorporated and utilized so much of today’s technology; I couldn’t imagine growing up and having my younger years in any other era of time.  I’m glad the 20s made it through but thankful I didn’t come for another 70 years later.

 

Thankful to those who made the freedom of expression in music possible, it was time to let the passion fly and bring in 2013 with contentment and forgetting regrets.  It was time to let my scars heal.  Remembering those I love.  10 seconds left to midnight, the DJs shake the champagne bottles.  5, 4, 3, (everyone is screaming) 2, 1—and the champagne is sprayed in every direction, soaking us all in the promise of redemption that the New Year will bring. 

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